One year of Faith

I remembered fondly it was at a pre-christmas primers event that I give my heart to the Lord last year. Praise the Lord. I am an one year old child now, muhahahahaha. That is a joke, aha going on to be 20 years old soon.

At first, I though being a christian is ever so easy, we wont come commit any sins, we wont face any challenges or been tempted in any ways; everything will run smoothly for me. But i was proved wrong, as Satan is always on the lookout to wreck us too.

First, there was a struggle of choosing the right church for me, FCBC or Lighthouse Evangelism. I enjoyed the fellowship i have in FCBC as i know most of them thru primers, but aaron is at lighthouse, so i decided to attend lighthouse regularly since the sermon speaks to me more, Pastor Rony! Secondly, there was a struggle to commit myself to go cell group. Initially i went for primers’ cell grp, hmm i was the only girl in the cell but i feel so comfortable being with those brothers. But i know that this situation cant last long as i can only be loyal to 1 church. So i tell them i will find a cell grp in lighthouse, sure i did yeah. I feel good to say I am the YOUNGEST in the cell, wahahahahaha. I like mixed cell group, love the fellowship and coziness with my fellow elder brothers and sisters. Thirdly is the call to get baptize, i will do it after i reached 21 years old. By then I will be ready for it. =)

Then coming from a non-christian family, getting your parents to accept that fact that hey im going to church or cell group is tough. Wow getting over the parents’ hurdle is like running a marathon – patiently i wait for their acceptance oh yes i think they have come to terms to it. I pray that Lord will soften their hearts and lead them to the Kingdom of God. Oh ya i have abandon all my horoscope books and those new age beliefs, Praise God.

Hmm sharing the same faith helps in my relationship with Aaron. We have come thus far because of God, close to 16 months already and we are still together. We enjoyed our best times, we have our temptations too, Satan trying to influence us through the people that we know. We nearly call this relationship to an end recently, but praise Lord for pulling us back to our senses. Praise God for giving me that courage to make the first step in solving our issues, I know You was speaking to me as i made that run, thank you Lord for enabling us to grow stronger after all the ups and downs we went through. Lord, i commit this relationship with Aaron into your hands, that you will continue to bless us, forgive us for all the sins we have committed and guide us through for i want to spend many Christmases with Aaron too. I love my cute little boy
“Never leave your partner behind, especially in a fire’

Lord, thank you for everything u have done for me. Love you Lord.

Run Baby Run

for the 2nd year running, i miss out on SC marathon again 😦
Hmm, marathon fever is rushing back to me, a great motivation to run for marathons next year, woohoo!

I going to conquer the full 42km for sundown and standard chartered, nothing gonna stop me! Run baby run =D

I know what to add in my wish list, yes i want more bras of different colours and i want a new pair of running shoes.

Adidas Sundown Marathon 2010

Just as i was feeling down and demoralised by the exams preparations, received an email on the registration for 2010 sundown marathon!!! woohoo =D

20% for past participants

My next target.

I still feel i need more time, cos it brings back all the unhappy moments i went through during the past few months of relationship.

Im seriously fine, come on HL is not easily defeated, screw u SATAN. I commit my relationship with Aaron into God’s Hand, we shall be good, amen

Love u Aaron. ❤

heart aching

u always made me sad. U always cheer me up after disappointing me. I always forgive you.

This semester in school isn’t the happiest of all semesters, but i feel stronger in the Lord than before.

15 months have passed, there are up and down in this relationship, sweet, crazy, wild, fun, laughter, sadness, crying, we experienced all these moments together.

Give me more time, i will be able to fully come out from that incident

LTC gathering_261109

Met up with the LTC gang for our steamboat feast @ 鲜得来, bugis.The crazy gang who were there: shankra, edward, zheng kang, maggie, grace, anita, peilin and me, i found it a blessing to have all the ex-leaders of the various cca clubs still gathering together, these are the friends that u always can count upon on.

Went to TCC after steamboat to chit chat. After that left me, peilin, shankra, and edward who went on to watch the preview of twilight-new moon, and slacking at MacDonald.

Cant wait for another gathering with this bunch of ppl again =D

Now i feeling the after effects of spending the whole night outside, haven fully started my revision yet!

NVM I SHALL SHOOT ALL THOSE SHIPPING MODULES DOWN! MUST GET As FOR ALL. 6 ACES =D

Running, squats, push up and crunches =D

Yes, the feeling is back! Finally motivated myself to do squats, and it’s really SHIOK. Aha when u feel the tightening of the muscles, u know u getting there. Alright there are still lots of room for improvement, nevertheless it was a good start, stamina is improving woohoo. Praise God!

I want a flat stomach! I keep thinking of the NPCC & TKD days where i was really fit. I know i can do it! Go HL!

Screw those negative thoughts

woke up with negative thoughts, just screw it man.Flashback of the incident only make it worse. Lord, it shall be a Great Day today.

back together

Both of us attended miracle service @ LEW for the 1st time, i was late but was shocked not to see muthu there with us, felt strange to be only with u at the servie. We held hands, and I felt like crying and i did, 2 times in fact. I never wear the ring that day, cos i completely forgot abt it and i dont feel like wearing it. the sermon preached by pastor pacer speak to our heart. We looked into each other eyes and knew this is the moment and we patched up.

Aha we took only 5 days, breaking all the rules of the 2 weeks cool down period. Some friends dont believe we have problems, well every couple have their own interesting stories to tell. Relationship is never easy, bounds to have it’s ups and downs, this includes relationship with God. Thank God for guiding us and finding the right answer to our relationship.

I was glad to be back together, all the pains, all those silent suffering, all those anger, all those crying ARGH finally is over. Thank God for our relationship. Obviously, my confidence, my love, my trust in you have dropped tremendously, i guess it takes time to put it all to high mode again haha. I believe it was a good test of our relationship, of coz i dont want to go thru this kind of trauma again, it’s shucks! Through this, i know the girls emotions still run in me despite having a guy’s mindset, though i try to act tough on outside, but deep down is bleeding love!

I need to regain back the confidence and love again, i know it’s tough. Trust in Lord.

happy and thankful

I know this morning, today shall be a great day. Indeed it is a great day! Even though i was full of anger for the past few days in class (due to Satan) but after the phone call from val, i feel so much better! Praise Lord! She really knock some senses to my sinful thoughts, yeah we can only emerge stronger through this incident.
I went to my fav. hangout in sch- the sch stadium while listening to her on the phone, she gave me great advice, and I know God is talking to me through her =D awesome

Thanks Paul for responding to my SOS, who especially came all the way down to SP after his Mindef work. I was touched! He and chaiyun asked me out to watch movie – My girlfriend is an agent, funny movie =D Thanks Paul and Chaiyun for accompanying me for that evening. Thanks jonathan for consoling me,is been very long since i met u, yeap see you on fri! Thanks maggie for organising the LTC gathering on end of of this month, looking forward to the old gang meet up =D Thanks Sam, Thondres, Christie, Yuesheng for the support and encouragement, really appreciate it all. Thanks Nicholas Lu for talking to me this morning, i know u are very concern for both aaron and I, and the only guy from the DB gang to talk to me since the incident, thanks for your understanding. Thanks to those 3 crazy girls who really give me the quiet times to reflect and let me off from fyp. Thanks mum for being there for me =)

Even though 2 weeks is not up yet, I belive Lord will provide us with the answers, amen
Though this incident, i realised how i clinged on to God’s strength and guidance, when i couldnt eat, couldnt think properly, He is always there for me. My spiritual walk with Him become deeper and stronger. I also know how to fight against Satan with my strong faith in God.