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Met up with the LTC gang for our steamboat feast @ 鲜得来, bugis.The crazy gang who were there: shankra, edward, zheng kang, maggie, grace, anita, peilin and me, i found it a blessing to have all the ex-leaders of the various cca clubs still gathering together, these are the friends that u always can count upon on.

Went to TCC after steamboat to chit chat. After that left me, peilin, shankra, and edward who went on to watch the preview of twilight-new moon, and slacking at MacDonald.

Cant wait for another gathering with this bunch of ppl again =D

Now i feeling the after effects of spending the whole night outside, haven fully started my revision yet!

NVM I SHALL SHOOT ALL THOSE SHIPPING MODULES DOWN! MUST GET As FOR ALL. 6 ACES =D

Running, squats, push up and crunches =D

Yes, the feeling is back! Finally motivated myself to do squats, and it’s really SHIOK. Aha when u feel the tightening of the muscles, u know u getting there. Alright there are still lots of room for improvement, nevertheless it was a good start, stamina is improving woohoo. Praise God!

I want a flat stomach! I keep thinking of the NPCC & TKD days where i was really fit. I know i can do it! Go HL!

Screw those negative thoughts

woke up with negative thoughts, just screw it man.Flashback of the incident only make it worse. Lord, it shall be a Great Day today.

back together

Both of us attended miracle service @ LEW for the 1st time, i was late but was shocked not to see muthu there with us, felt strange to be only with u at the servie. We held hands, and I felt like crying and i did, 2 times in fact. I never wear the ring that day, cos i completely forgot abt it and i dont feel like wearing it. the sermon preached by pastor pacer speak to our heart. We looked into each other eyes and knew this is the moment and we patched up.

Aha we took only 5 days, breaking all the rules of the 2 weeks cool down period. Some friends dont believe we have problems, well every couple have their own interesting stories to tell. Relationship is never easy, bounds to have it’s ups and downs, this includes relationship with God. Thank God for guiding us and finding the right answer to our relationship.

I was glad to be back together, all the pains, all those silent suffering, all those anger, all those crying ARGH finally is over. Thank God for our relationship. Obviously, my confidence, my love, my trust in you have dropped tremendously, i guess it takes time to put it all to high mode again haha. I believe it was a good test of our relationship, of coz i dont want to go thru this kind of trauma again, it’s shucks! Through this, i know the girls emotions still run in me despite having a guy’s mindset, though i try to act tough on outside, but deep down is bleeding love!

I need to regain back the confidence and love again, i know it’s tough. Trust in Lord.

happy and thankful

I know this morning, today shall be a great day. Indeed it is a great day! Even though i was full of anger for the past few days in class (due to Satan) but after the phone call from val, i feel so much better! Praise Lord! She really knock some senses to my sinful thoughts, yeah we can only emerge stronger through this incident.
I went to my fav. hangout in sch- the sch stadium while listening to her on the phone, she gave me great advice, and I know God is talking to me through her =D awesome

Thanks Paul for responding to my SOS, who especially came all the way down to SP after his Mindef work. I was touched! He and chaiyun asked me out to watch movie – My girlfriend is an agent, funny movie =D Thanks Paul and Chaiyun for accompanying me for that evening. Thanks jonathan for consoling me,is been very long since i met u, yeap see you on fri! Thanks maggie for organising the LTC gathering on end of of this month, looking forward to the old gang meet up =D Thanks Sam, Thondres, Christie, Yuesheng for the support and encouragement, really appreciate it all. Thanks Nicholas Lu for talking to me this morning, i know u are very concern for both aaron and I, and the only guy from the DB gang to talk to me since the incident, thanks for your understanding. Thanks to those 3 crazy girls who really give me the quiet times to reflect and let me off from fyp. Thanks mum for being there for me =)

Even though 2 weeks is not up yet, I belive Lord will provide us with the answers, amen
Though this incident, i realised how i clinged on to God’s strength and guidance, when i couldnt eat, couldnt think properly, He is always there for me. My spiritual walk with Him become deeper and stronger. I also know how to fight against Satan with my strong faith in God.

Seeking the answers from Lord

well well well, both of us had finally put the cards on the table and talk it out fully on the matters troubling our heart. I dont like dragging things in relationship. It’s really frustrating to have a guy mindset yet i have a girl feeling too, this shucks.

My sixth sense is accurate after all, he still have that ‘infatuation’ on that girl in the ministry. My heart break and it really hurts. Somehow or rather after confronting him, i have that tremendous motivation to run and listen to christian songs on my ipod. A sense of calmness overcome me, i still can sms and talk to me calmly on the phone. I know God is guiding me, awesome if not i could have a volcano eruption.

I went to his house to surprise him and talk again. I think he is still inmature and he needs to grow more with the Lord. I hope Satan spirit will be driven out of his heart and let the wonderful Holy Spirit filled his heart

Finally dont let this affect our FYP and exams, whatever it is life still goes on.

God will guide us through, amen.

dreaming of Europe Trip

wow im dreaming of touring Europe now! My mum has agreed to me studying in overseas, woohoo. There is little hope i can study maritime degree course in NTU, so overseas is the only way out.

Conditions to fulfill :
1) earn enough money before going overseas
2) no casino, no drugs, or other temptations
3) must go back singapore once finished the course

must work hard towards this goal!

Practical Faith

Pastor Rony recent sermons about practical faith speaks to my heart, it spurs me on to do continue on my running routine again =D

Here are the five action steps of faith:
1) Hear the Word of God
2) Believe the Word of God
3) Receive the Word of God
4) Say the Word of God
5) Act the Word of God

In the mighty name of Jesus, i drove the Satan spirit out of my mind, the devil has been creating a chaos in my thoughts recently.

Confused

Just when i was so confused about relationship, a brother came to my help. It’s feel great to sough a guy opinon =) I know i shouldnt worry, but somehow there is still some tweaking of my heart.

I just chat with him through MSN, he gave me this advice, *commitment, trust, respect and love
*reafrim ur commitment, so that you can trust while respecting each other due to the love both of u share
this is such a wonderful phrase that I have finally found it back, i lost the feeling somehow along the way, but i know God is still guiding me The Way, showing me The Light, and The Truth.

Thanks to the puny guy a.k.a Paul, although Paul means ’small’ in latin, but he is a tall guy full of peotic thoughts haha. I feel refreshed for relationship again after chatting with him. I hope that he can meet the right girl for him soon =)

fyp madness

tmr shall be my 3rd straight day of meeting up to do fyp in sch, should have just plan a mini-fyp camp, stay in sch whole day for 3 days 2 nights, pure madness. Thank god i still have not reach the stage of puking blood, but we are still surviving….haha the four crazy girls really miss all the year 1s jokes and laughter, crazy us with all the different nicknames for ourselves, classmates and lecturers haha.

Completed our companies interviewing just a few days back, it certainly gives us some ideas on what my grp may have miss out, and it also strengthens the project value. At least we have ventured out to the real corporate world to get the valuable insights into the shipping industry.

just want to get fyp off my burden soon, is getting heavier…